Wow. It has been a looooong time since I've posted anything on here. What to say.....
Life is different. WAAAYYY different.
People have come and gone. My life has been moved across town. Mistakes and memories have been made. But overall... I truely love my life just as it is. I have amazing friends who help me through everything thats been going on and support me in all my decisions. My family, now separated, is strangely closer than ever. I've learned that nothing will ever stay the same. There will be change at one point or another. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. But it will always work out. God has a plan for me.
"Don't worry, just breathe. If it's meant to be, it will find it's way."
I found this quote a while ago and I have it saved as the background to my phone so that I will see it multiple times a day. It's such a simple concept but so hard to put into action. I live by this quote now, hoping that it leads me somewhere new and exciting. :)
About Me
- AmeliaRebecca
- I'm 17 years old and a junior in high school. Life is... complicated, but isn't it always?
Friday, November 11, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
I need more time....
If I could have 60 hour days, that would be wonderful. I have so much to do in so little time. Lately I've felt so rushed and stressed out trying to get everything done. I got a 28 on my ACT, which I am not happy with. I was hoping for a 32 or better, so I guess I'll just have to try again in June. I'm pretty much brain dead and out of things to say, so I'm off. I swear I will blog more often, even though I know I've said that a million times.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Slow it down.....
I am so tired ALL THE TIME. With high school and work and extra curriculars... I'm doing about 70 hour weeks. I need sleep. Lots and lots of sleep. All I want is for exams to be done with so I can rest and recooperate.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Check this cool kid out!
So this is my friend Matt's vlog. He is pretty cool. We do tech stuff together sometimes. I'm posting this video of his so you can watch it, and comment it, and like it, and love it, and watch all of his videos. But... I'm also posting it because I'm going to kick his butt in bowling someday. It's on. :P
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
ACT - Day One
Today... I took the ACT. Wow. It was... interesting. It was pretty much what I had expected, but I feel like I could have used more time. Who decided that because you can take a test fast means you're smarter than someone who takes their time and gets the answers right? I mean really. Ugh. Anyways...
Not much is new really. I've been searching for a job. Not a new one, but another one. TJ Maxx just isnt cutting it. I need to work more hours, even though that will mean less free time (not that I have any now...).
Speaking of the ACT and jobs.... college. Oh boy. The word scares the living daylights out of me. I know what I want to do with my life (violin performance and biology), but I haven't quite figured out how to get there. Graduating high school obviously needs to come first, but I don't feel like I'm old enough to graduate. I still feel 12! It feels like I was in middle school just yesterday and now I'm almost done with my junior year of high school. It's scary how fast life seems to move forward these days. I'm scared for what is coming in this next year. I don't want to graduate and leave behind everything I've ever known. I'll be leaving my friends, my family... everything. I'm excited about living on my own, but I'm also scared to death. If you can't tell already... I'm really nervous about college. Haha. But... I'm a strongwilled red-head. I can do this.
Not much is new really. I've been searching for a job. Not a new one, but another one. TJ Maxx just isnt cutting it. I need to work more hours, even though that will mean less free time (not that I have any now...).
Speaking of the ACT and jobs.... college. Oh boy. The word scares the living daylights out of me. I know what I want to do with my life (violin performance and biology), but I haven't quite figured out how to get there. Graduating high school obviously needs to come first, but I don't feel like I'm old enough to graduate. I still feel 12! It feels like I was in middle school just yesterday and now I'm almost done with my junior year of high school. It's scary how fast life seems to move forward these days. I'm scared for what is coming in this next year. I don't want to graduate and leave behind everything I've ever known. I'll be leaving my friends, my family... everything. I'm excited about living on my own, but I'm also scared to death. If you can't tell already... I'm really nervous about college. Haha. But... I'm a strongwilled red-head. I can do this.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Thoughts
I told myself that I was going to post a new blog everyday, but life has been busy. Today I found some time to actually sit down and write something.
I've been doing a lot of thinking recently and I've come to a few conclusions.
1. The world does not revolve around me. Yes, I know this would seem obvious but I've come to realize that the way I act shows that I think the universe revolves around Amelia. But this is not the case anymore. I've come to understand that there are WAY more important things in life than my happiness. I've been told that I'm a very optimistic person and that I don't let things get me down, and I recently gave someone an answer as to why this was. I said, "When I'm down, yes, I will be sad for myself for a little while, but there is a point where I have to suck it up and move on, because the world doesnt revolve around my unhappiness. Life goes on whether I'm happy or not."
2. Some people will disappoint you no matter what. There's really no getting around it. There are going to be people in your life (friends, family, co-workers) who you just can't please. We have to realize this and move on with our lives. People who constantly bring us down aren't worth the trouble.
3. High school sucks. Yep. It really blows. The horomone levels are through the roof and no one is thinking straight. It resembles an insane asylum rather than an actual high school. But these are the "best years of our lives," right?
4. My life is way too busy. I'm working on cutting out unnecessary events to free up some much needed time for myself. I used to love reading and would read a book or two a week, but I haven't done that in years. Today I actually picked up a book and got through 4 chapters. It felt fantastic. So I've made a promise my comfy chair that I will spend more time in it reading.
After all that, I can say that my life is going to start looking up soon. I'm sure of it.
AND I will post more often :)
I've been doing a lot of thinking recently and I've come to a few conclusions.
1. The world does not revolve around me. Yes, I know this would seem obvious but I've come to realize that the way I act shows that I think the universe revolves around Amelia. But this is not the case anymore. I've come to understand that there are WAY more important things in life than my happiness. I've been told that I'm a very optimistic person and that I don't let things get me down, and I recently gave someone an answer as to why this was. I said, "When I'm down, yes, I will be sad for myself for a little while, but there is a point where I have to suck it up and move on, because the world doesnt revolve around my unhappiness. Life goes on whether I'm happy or not."
2. Some people will disappoint you no matter what. There's really no getting around it. There are going to be people in your life (friends, family, co-workers) who you just can't please. We have to realize this and move on with our lives. People who constantly bring us down aren't worth the trouble.
3. High school sucks. Yep. It really blows. The horomone levels are through the roof and no one is thinking straight. It resembles an insane asylum rather than an actual high school. But these are the "best years of our lives," right?
4. My life is way too busy. I'm working on cutting out unnecessary events to free up some much needed time for myself. I used to love reading and would read a book or two a week, but I haven't done that in years. Today I actually picked up a book and got through 4 chapters. It felt fantastic. So I've made a promise my comfy chair that I will spend more time in it reading.
After all that, I can say that my life is going to start looking up soon. I'm sure of it.
AND I will post more often :)
Friday, January 7, 2011
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Nothing New
Today has just been bland overall. There is nothing really new to say.
Today has been a Green Day day.
Today has been a Green Day day.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Different Day, Different Outcome
I'm trying to post every day, and with less than half an hour left, I figured I should probably think of something. So this is it...
Life doesn't always go as planned, especially today. There are always times when we will be caught off guard and it is going to hurt, but we can't let it keep us down. We have to remind ourselves to get back on our feet. There are always going to be people to whom we have proved we want in our lives, but they don't seem to want us in theirs. It's harsh, but it's reality. These things just need to be dealt with one at a time, or the situation can consume us. I read a story today about a man who was fasely accused of stealing. He told his story to complete strangers trying to prove his innocence. In the end of the story, the obessession with his innocence drove him to insanity, and ultimately, to his death. Yes, this is a sad story, and no one would want this to happen to them. But sometimes we have to let conflicts go and just let the wounds heal with time. The healing process is going to hurt, and I can guarantee it will be uncomfortable, but letting conflict consume us is going to land us in a very unhappy state of mind. Everyone always says, "Be the bigger person," and this is really the truth. We have to learn to let things go and not always try to prove ourselves.
A friend of mine posted this quote on her Facebook status today. I found it comforting and thought I would share it with you. It reads,
Life doesn't always go as planned, especially today. There are always times when we will be caught off guard and it is going to hurt, but we can't let it keep us down. We have to remind ourselves to get back on our feet. There are always going to be people to whom we have proved we want in our lives, but they don't seem to want us in theirs. It's harsh, but it's reality. These things just need to be dealt with one at a time, or the situation can consume us. I read a story today about a man who was fasely accused of stealing. He told his story to complete strangers trying to prove his innocence. In the end of the story, the obessession with his innocence drove him to insanity, and ultimately, to his death. Yes, this is a sad story, and no one would want this to happen to them. But sometimes we have to let conflicts go and just let the wounds heal with time. The healing process is going to hurt, and I can guarantee it will be uncomfortable, but letting conflict consume us is going to land us in a very unhappy state of mind. Everyone always says, "Be the bigger person," and this is really the truth. We have to learn to let things go and not always try to prove ourselves.
A friend of mine posted this quote on her Facebook status today. I found it comforting and thought I would share it with you. It reads,
Sunday, January 2, 2011
The Meaning of Life... My Version
The meaning of life... one of the most debated subjects in history. Well here's what I think. Whether you believe in a higher power or not, I know that we were all put on this earth for a reason. My reason... I have yet to discover. Maybe it will be to raise children, and maybe it will be to change the world. I have no way of knowing for sure. I just know that I will find out eventually. My current purpose in life is to love those around me to the best of my ability. I know I'm not perfect. I mess up A LOT. But I am fortunate to have family and friends who love me no matter what. I have some of the best friends a girl could ask for (you know who you are). Yes, sometimes our relationships aren't always the best, and yes, sometimes we fight. But it's nothing that we can't overcome. I have all the support in the world in everything I do, and I couldn't ask for more.
Everyday I sit and wonder what my purpose is in life... and I can never find an answer. I sit here looking for a sign. Am I chosing the right path? Is this what I was meant to be doing with my life? I will never really know I guess. I can't live my life once, and then choose a different path and live it again to see if it will be different. Life doesn't work that way. We only get one shot to make the best we can of the blessings we are given. Sometimes I sit and wish I were better off, and then I realize how selfish I am being. I have been blessed with so much more than I deserve, and not just in material possesions, but with love and understanding as well.
No one is perfect, and I am certainly far from it, but I try the best I can to be just who I am supposed to be. I've made the mistake many times of trying to be someone else's idea of perfect, and in the end I was never happy. Becomming obsessed with being someone other than yourself will get you nowhere in life. Only to a miserable state of loneliness.
I'm only seventeen and still in the process of discovering myself, but I think I'm on the right track. I'm certainly happy with my life currently. So maybe the meaning of life is to just be ourselves, because that's what will bring us true happiness. Maybe it is to love one another. There are thousands of possible answers to the unanswerable question. You just have to decide which one you believe in.
Everyday I sit and wonder what my purpose is in life... and I can never find an answer. I sit here looking for a sign. Am I chosing the right path? Is this what I was meant to be doing with my life? I will never really know I guess. I can't live my life once, and then choose a different path and live it again to see if it will be different. Life doesn't work that way. We only get one shot to make the best we can of the blessings we are given. Sometimes I sit and wish I were better off, and then I realize how selfish I am being. I have been blessed with so much more than I deserve, and not just in material possesions, but with love and understanding as well.
No one is perfect, and I am certainly far from it, but I try the best I can to be just who I am supposed to be. I've made the mistake many times of trying to be someone else's idea of perfect, and in the end I was never happy. Becomming obsessed with being someone other than yourself will get you nowhere in life. Only to a miserable state of loneliness.
I'm only seventeen and still in the process of discovering myself, but I think I'm on the right track. I'm certainly happy with my life currently. So maybe the meaning of life is to just be ourselves, because that's what will bring us true happiness. Maybe it is to love one another. There are thousands of possible answers to the unanswerable question. You just have to decide which one you believe in.
New Blog
We, as humans, feel the need to be so secretive, but why? Everything we feel and everything we struggle with are the same emotions and hardships as millions of other people. Why not share them and learn from eachother? This is the purpose of my blog. It is for me to share my ups, downs, and everything in between, and for you to join me in this learning process. Welcome to the life of Amelia.
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