Long time, no post.

Wow. It has been a looooong time since I've posted anything on here. What to say.....

Life is different. WAAAYYY different.

People have come and gone. My life has been moved across town. Mistakes and memories have been made. But overall... I truely love my life just as it is. I have amazing friends who help me through everything thats been going on and support me in all my decisions. My family, now separated, is strangely closer than ever. I've learned that nothing will ever stay the same. There will be change at one point or another. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. But it will always work out. God has a plan for me.

"Don't worry, just breathe. If it's meant to be, it will find it's way."

I found this quote a while ago and I have it saved as the background to my phone so that I will see it multiple times a day. It's such a simple concept but so hard to put into action. I live by this quote now, hoping that it leads me somewhere new and exciting. :)

I need more time....

If I could have 60 hour days, that would be wonderful. I have so much to do in so little time. Lately I've felt so rushed and stressed out trying to get everything done. I got a 28 on my ACT, which I am not happy with. I was hoping for a 32 or better, so I guess I'll just have to try again in June. I'm pretty much brain dead and out of things to say, so I'm off. I swear I will blog more often, even though I know I've said that a million times.

Slow it down.....

I am so tired ALL THE TIME. With high school and work and extra curriculars... I'm doing about 70 hour weeks. I need sleep. Lots and lots of sleep. All I want is for exams to be done with so I can rest and recooperate.

Check this cool kid out!

So this is my friend Matt's vlog. He is pretty cool. We do tech stuff together sometimes. I'm posting this video of his so you can watch it, and comment it, and like it, and love it, and watch all of his videos. But... I'm also posting it because I'm going to kick his butt in bowling someday. It's on. :P

ACT - Day One

Today... I took the ACT. Wow. It was... interesting. It was pretty much what I had expected, but I feel like I could have used more time. Who decided that because you can take a test fast means you're smarter than someone who takes their time and gets the answers right? I mean really. Ugh. Anyways...

Not much is new really. I've been searching for a job. Not a new one, but another one. TJ Maxx just isnt cutting it. I need to work more hours, even though that will mean less free time (not that I have any now...).

Speaking of the ACT and jobs.... college. Oh boy. The word scares the living daylights out of me. I know what I want to do with my life (violin performance and biology), but I haven't quite figured out how to get there. Graduating high school obviously needs to come first, but I don't feel like I'm old enough to graduate. I still feel 12! It feels like I was in middle school just yesterday and now I'm almost done with my junior year of high school. It's scary how fast life seems to move forward these days. I'm scared for what is coming in this next year. I don't want to graduate and leave behind everything I've ever known. I'll be leaving my friends, my family... everything. I'm excited about living on my own, but I'm also scared to death. If you can't tell already... I'm really nervous about college. Haha. But... I'm a strongwilled red-head. I can do this.

Thoughts

I told myself that I was going to post a new blog everyday, but life has been busy. Today I found some time to actually sit down and write something.

I've been doing a lot of thinking recently and I've come to a few conclusions.
       1. The world does not revolve around me. Yes, I know this would seem obvious but I've come to realize that the way I act shows that I think the universe revolves around Amelia. But this is not the case anymore. I've come to understand that there are WAY more important things in life than my happiness. I've been told that I'm a very optimistic person and that I don't let things get me down, and I recently gave someone an answer as to why this was. I said, "When I'm down, yes, I will be sad for myself for a little while, but there is a point where I have to suck it up and move on, because the world doesnt revolve around my unhappiness. Life goes on whether I'm happy or not."
       2. Some people will disappoint you no matter what. There's really no getting around it. There are going to be people in your life (friends, family, co-workers) who you just can't please. We have to realize this and move on with our lives. People who constantly bring us down aren't worth the trouble.
       3. High school sucks. Yep. It really blows. The horomone levels are through the roof and no one is thinking straight. It resembles an insane asylum rather than an actual high school. But these are the "best years of our lives," right?
       4. My life is way too busy. I'm working on cutting out unnecessary events to free up some much needed time for myself. I used to love reading and would read a book or two a week, but I haven't done that in years. Today I actually picked up a book and got through 4 chapters. It felt fantastic. So I've made a promise my comfy chair that I will spend more time in it reading.


After all that, I can say that my life is going to start looking up soon. I'm sure of it.

AND I will post more often :)

Not Good

Today, my life took a turn for the worst. End of story.