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I'm 17 years old and a junior in high school. Life is... complicated, but isn't it always?

Friday, January 7, 2011

Not Good

Today, my life took a turn for the worst. End of story.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Nothing New

Today has just been bland overall. There is nothing really new to say.


Today has been a Green Day day.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Different Day, Different Outcome

I'm trying to post every day, and with less than half an hour left, I figured I should probably think of something. So this is it...


Life doesn't always go as planned, especially today. There are always times when we will be caught off guard and it is going to hurt, but we can't let it keep us down. We have to remind ourselves to get back on our feet. There are always going to be people to whom we have proved we want in our lives, but they don't seem to want us in theirs. It's harsh, but it's reality. These things just need to be dealt with one at a time, or the situation can consume us. I read a story today about a man who was fasely accused of stealing. He told his story to complete strangers trying to prove his innocence. In the end of the story, the obessession with his innocence drove him to insanity, and ultimately, to his death. Yes, this is a sad story, and no one would want this to happen to them. But sometimes we have to let conflicts go and just let the wounds heal with time. The healing process is going to hurt, and I can guarantee it will be uncomfortable, but letting conflict consume us is going to land us in a very unhappy state of mind. Everyone always says, "Be the bigger person," and this is really the truth. We have to learn to let things go and not always try to prove ourselves.

A friend of mine posted this quote on her Facebook status today. I found it comforting and thought I would share it with you. It reads, "Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else." This quote is from Judy Garland, and I wish I could thank her. Not only did I find comfort in this quote, but I learned a little bit more about myself today. The truth that this quote contains is inspiring. The past few weeks, I have been really trying to find myself, and this was just a shove in the right direction. Now all I need is the determination to keep pushing forward.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

The Meaning of Life... My Version

The meaning of life... one of the most debated subjects in history. Well here's what I think. Whether you believe in a higher power or not, I know that we were all put on this earth for a reason. My reason... I have yet to discover. Maybe it will be to raise children, and maybe it will be to change the world. I have no way of knowing for sure. I just know that I will find out eventually. My current purpose in life is to love those around me to the best of my ability. I know I'm not perfect. I mess up A LOT. But I am fortunate to have family and friends who love me no matter what. I have some of the best friends a girl could ask for (you know who you are). Yes, sometimes our relationships aren't always the best, and yes, sometimes we fight. But it's nothing that we can't overcome. I have all the support in the world in everything I do, and I couldn't ask for more.

Everyday I sit and wonder what my purpose is in life... and I can never find an answer. I sit here looking for a sign. Am I chosing the right path? Is this what I was meant to be doing with my life? I will never really know I guess. I can't live my life once, and then choose a different path and live it again to see if it will be different. Life doesn't work that way. We only get one shot to make the best we can of the blessings we are given. Sometimes I sit and wish I were better off, and then I realize how selfish I am being. I have been blessed with so much more than I deserve, and not just in material possesions, but with love and understanding as well.

No one is perfect, and I am certainly far from it, but I try the best I can to be just who I am supposed to be. I've made the mistake many times of trying to be someone else's idea of perfect, and in the end I was never happy. Becomming obsessed with being someone other than yourself will get you nowhere in life. Only to a miserable state of loneliness.

I'm only seventeen and still in the process of discovering myself, but I think I'm on the right track. I'm certainly happy with my life currently. So maybe the meaning of life is to just be ourselves, because that's what will bring us true happiness. Maybe it is to love one another. There are thousands of possible answers to the unanswerable question. You just have to decide which one you believe in.

New Blog

We, as humans, feel the need to be so secretive, but why? Everything we feel and everything we struggle with are the same emotions and hardships as millions of other people. Why not share them and learn from eachother? This is the purpose of my blog. It is for me to share my ups, downs, and everything in between, and for you to join me in this learning process. Welcome to the life of Amelia.